Is that not the most true statement.
I had a really good friend tell me this tonight while I was venting the weight off my shoulders. I felt this statement through and through.
Life has caught up with me and I just need a chance to exhale.
But how do you do that…how do you find the time to exhale when so much of your time is spent being needed? How do you find the time to exhale while still figuring out how to navigate the single mom/special needs mom life? How do you find the time to exhale when 91% of the time these three little people count on you to be their everything.
This week has been a tough week. Matthew has been sick in bed for 5 days with Influenza B and at risk for pneumonia. Grant had his 10th birthday this week and I feel like it was overlooked because of taking care of Matthew. Gracie has been having some major 4 going on 15 attitude this week that’s tested every last bit of my patience. This week I’ve laughed, sighed, smiled and cried but I haven’t taken the time to exhale.
The past six weeks Grant has seemed to forget how to sleep in a bed. I’ve been spending a majority of my nights sleeping on a recliner chair going from sitting up to laying back to sitting up to laying back again. He tosses and turns which means I lay awake. I’m exhausted. My body hurts. My arms are so weak from sitting the same way night after night. He finally started making some progress and then Matthew got sick. They share a room and so Grant hasn’t been able to sleep in there all week. I’ve spent all week trying to figure out how to get him to sleep. I’ve tried Gracie’s bed and my bed but there I sit on the recliner because it makes him comfy. And I forget to exhale.
I can feel me wearing down. I can feel the weight of it all weighing on my shoulders. I can feel the stress of it all bearing down on me. The constant being needed by someone. The kids being my responsibility almost all the time with the exception of a few hours on the weekends. It’s all weighing on me but the reminder that I just need a chance to exhale was just the reminder I needed. Now to find the time to do so!
Moral of the story: life gets crazy, life gets hard and life can wear you thin…but you can’t pour from an empty cup…you have to take time to exhale.
Have a blessed day!