Ten years!

Ten incredibly lllooonnnggg but way too short years ago I made it Facebook official with this photo…

I was pregnant with our second baby!

Two months before this I found out I had endometriosis. I was told getting pregnant could very well be a challenge. After a few long conversations my husband and I decided to go ahead and start trying for another baby. We knew we didn’t want to wait too long between kiddos and if it might be a challenge we would start now because young naive us though “it will take several months probably almost a year”

The next month we starting trying and BAM big fat positive pregnancy test! I’m not going to lie I was a little scared and nervous. It wasn’t supposed to happen this fast. Matthew had only just turned 10 months!!

All the fears started rushing through my head. Did we do this too soon? Will I be able to love this new baby as much as I love Matthew? Did I cheat Matthew by not giving him enough mom time? But then someone told me that Matthew will never remember the time he had as an only child. He will always know his best friend and sibling and all the memories made.

After that I was able to start imagining the future. Will I have another baby boy? A forever best friend for Matthew? Or will it be a baby girl? Someone for Matthew to be the protector and take care of? Life had so many possible and life was so perfect!

I never imagine going to that first doctors appointment would change everything! so many unknowns. So many questions!! Over the next several months I’m sure there will be posts that walk down memory lane as I venture through one of the hardest times in my life.

Moral of the story: life is not something you can plan. You have no control. You have to just let go and let God!

Have a blessed day!