There are so many great things about being a special needs mom. I could sit here all night and type out my list of good, great and amazing reasons being a special needs mom is awesome. But that’s not why I’m here.
I want to write about something that is just to common in the world of special needs moms…isolation. Yes…it’s true…it’s real and it sucks!! I used to have so many friends. I went out every Tuesday night with my group of friends and we had a blast. Now I’m not going to lie a lot of those friends disappeared when I got married and that’s okay. That’s life. I was in a place a lot of them weren’t. That’s not what hurts.
So what does hurt? Those very few, very close friends I did have that have slowly diminished into no friends at all. I miss having friends to invite us to do things. “Hey we are going to the zoo do you and the kids want to come?” “Hey it’s a beautiful day. Want to join us at the park?” I long for those friends.
Being a special needs mom can turn into a very lonely world…seriously! I feel like since I don’t have a life that I can run and grab a drink because my husband works long hours so that I can stay home and make sure our kids are taken care of makes me seem like a bad friend. Trust me I wish when my husband got home I could say “Hey, I’m going to grab a drink with the girls. It’s been a rough day!” But that’s not the life I live.
I sometimes honestly feel like I have no one. I long to have that friend that our kiddos get together frequently and play even if that means making a few accommodations for Grant. I long for that friend that just knows when I’m having a bad day and shows up with a coffee in hand and we sit on the couch and watch our kiddos play in the living room. I want that friend that just gets it…gets my life and all the good…and bad…that comes a long with it. That understands that even when invited I can’t always make it but never stops inviting me.
Moral of the story: I love being a special needs mom! Wouldn’t trade it for the world because it’s made me into the person I am today. But I am human…and I miss having a person!
Have a blessed day!