Yes you CP!!!
My hate for you burns strong sometimes and tonight is one of those times!
I know I’ve talked before about Grant and sleep but it’s going to be a frequent topic of conversation because it’s something dealt with daily!!
This is what has been going on the last 3 nights and I just don’t know what to do. It now takes me 2-3 hours to get him to sleep. We cuddle and cuddle and he tosses and turns and whines and cries and fusses. He’s up and down. He wants a drink. He wants in his bed then cries.
I know something isn’t right but I don’t know what. He won’t tell me either. I ask if something hurts and it’s something different every time. Tonight it was his head, ear, fingers, tummy, leg and feet. That’s how many times I asked and all the different answers I got.
I try to reason with him. I try to explain to him that I can’t help him if he doesn’t tell me what’s wrong or help me figure out what’s wrong so I can help. We change positions. We get drink after drink. I’m at a loss!! I started typing this almost twenty minutes ago and have had to stop already. He’s back in my arms.
My heart is truly breaking for him. For us! We both get so incredibly frustrated! We stress each other out and when I put him down to take a breather and give myself a second he screams. He screams because he needs me…because he wants me.
Tonight is a night that I could scream from the rooftops “I HATE CEREBRAL PALSY!!!!” I don’t normally let it get to me. I don’t let it win. But tonight…it came close. However…it didn’t win!!
Moral of the story: life gets hard sometimes and it’s okay to get mad and scream and yell. But don’t let it consume you. Take a breath, stand back up and say bring it on!
Have a blessed day!